Today is a big day for Aiden, and of course he woke up this morning at 3:30. Not only does he have speech therapy today, but then later in the day at his normal nap time of course he will be doing part of his evaluation for early childhood.
To say that I am anxious would be an understatement. Aiden has made so much progress since may, and is doing fabulous. I do think he could do really well in early childhood, but there is still that very protective, concerned, trying not to freak out momma instinct kicking in.
When Kait went to her first day of preschool I
think know that I cried more then she did. We walked in the door and she ran off to play. That was that. I thought that was how it was going to be with Hailey, but she was a little clingy and sad but then ran into her classroom and has never looked back. With Aiden I worry a lot more because I may not know if everything is ok. What if something happens and he can’t tell me about it? There is also the element of his food allergies. If someone gives him something he is not suppose to have or misses an ingredient or someone brings in birthday treats. Ugh. I am going to drive myself nuts with all of the things that could happen.
I also know how hard change is for Aiden, that is another huge part of this whole transition being so hard. Of course no one likes change, but for him the most minor change can have a huge impact on him & our family. We have been working with him to be ok with changes or when something does not go the way it is “suppose to”. Sounds silly to some, but relatable to others.
I have found an amazing support system in friends of mine & those who I have recently met who also have a child(ren) with Autism. It’s nice to know I am not alone in my concerns, fears, frustrations, etc. With the good though also comes the bad. You would not believe the comments and things said about Aiden by people who are “close” to us or so we thought. “Can you return him for a non defective version”, “Sorry you got a broken kid”, and recently my personal favorite is “Could you please stop talking about autism, it’s gets annoying that you care so much about that one thing so much”.
I don’t care about that “one thing” I care about my son! I can only hope that now that the person who said this now has a child of her own will think a little differently. Probably not, but one can hope right.
Alright, I am off to spend the morning playing w. my babies and trying to keep Aiden awake until after his eval. Praying for a smooth day, with few meltdowns!
Have a fabulous day!